so much stuff on my heart right now.  there's so much insecurity with my job right now, and with my life.  i'm in the process of moving churches as well.  i was working out yesterday and i ran into a girl i know casually and we talked for about 10-15 minutes.  it was an interesting conversation.  it made me realize something.  i have 3 close friends, who have become distant lately.  not because of bad circumstance, but because of things in their lives.  one got married, one bought a condo, and one got a girlfriend that he hangs out with 24/7.  i don't have any of that.  so what does that leave me with?  FREEDOM!  i have the ability to do pretty much whatever my heart desires.  so now it's a matter of finding out what does the LORD want?  should i get into law enforcement?  should i join the military?  should an old man like me go to YWAM?  should i move to texas?  so many options, but what is right?

all i know is that i am getting restless and my heart wants more than what i have right now.  i wasn't planning on going to HA alumni weekend, but the opportunity has become available for that option.  it's a long ride from MN to TX and i feel that this weekend will be a very great time of reflection and seeking, as well as fellowship and catching up with old friends.  for those involved with the Honor Academy, i hope to see you there.